Hi friends, long time no see. It's been a long time since I last wrote and frankly, life has been WILD.
I mean, we had a son, and I was learning how to be a mom and juggle the struggle of raising a child and work and just finding who I was as a person. Not going to lie, it's been INCREDIBLY hard, and I have a whole new respect for moms who do it single-handedly like MF bosses. <Cue applause>
So, I'm sure you saw this photo, and are like "WTF?". Yeah. Totally my reaction too.
All I'm going to say, is if you're on BC, TAKE YOUR BC. Don't put work before your healthcare, and take your BC if you do not want to have another child. With that said, I am thrilled for my second baby (stay with me here).
Let's start from the beginning...
In May 2021, my BC pills were done and work was CRAZY busy. One thing you need to know about me is my work ethic is crazy. I don't want to say that I'm a workaholic because I can stop when necessary, but when I work, I work hard, I give my all and I ended up not renewing my BC pills, thinking I would still have difficulties getting pregnant and that I had "time" until I could go get my pills renewed. Reality though decided I needed to remove myself from an environment, and gave me another blessing in order to do that so I could finally see my worth (more on this later).
Interestingly, I found out I was pregnant at 4 weeks much difference than the 21 weeks with my son. This pregnancy was SO different, like night and day compared. to my son. I had morning sickness for the entire first and third trimester, I had horrible back pains and sciatica that I sought relief from a chiropractor that specializes in prenatal and children (Shoutout Q Wellness, Dr. Q is AMAZING! The staff and the entire experience was phenomenal. Gamechanger, life changing, I can't wait to go back.).
I begrudgingly went through this difficult pregnancy feeling exhausted, in pain, and emotionally insane. I know emotions and hormones are very high during pregnancy, but I absolutely did not feel like myself because my emotions and hormones were going bonkers.
(Fun Fact: This was also validated through my medium reading I had with Leticia from Iris Aura).
(I promise, I am trying to make this story short lol).
And then, I got diagnosed with Placenta Previa....again.
Shocked because I knew this was rare, I felt a little comfort knowing I knew what to expect. Another cesarean, no exercise to avoid the risk of bleeding, etc. And then a couple weeks later at a follow up appointment, I was diagnosed with Placenta previa, placenta accreta.
"WTH is Placenta Accreta?!" I fearfully thought.
"Placenta accreta is a serious pregnancy condition that occurs when the placenta grows too deeply into the uterine wall. Typically, the placenta detaches from the uterine wall after childbirth. With placenta accreta, part or all of the placenta remains attached. This can cause severe blood loss after delivery." - Mayo Clinic
What this meant for me was that the placenta was growing into the scar tissue of my previous c-section which ultimately meant, hysterectomy was inevitable.
No chance to birth another child, but this didn't scare me as much. What scared me was having the baby at 34 weeks. This meant a NICU stay.
My birth story was terrifying but I'll save that for another day, but I had my beautiful baby girl who is so cute and strong. There are a lot of things I prayed for in my life, wishing on stars and pennies in wishing wells. Those wishes went unanswered. But there was one prayer that was answered, and that was having my boy, and then a daughter.
I left my office job, started an admin business and stepped into the role of Operations Manager for my cousin's business. I support one of my best friend's in her business, and I get to do projects I enjoy.
My wallet right now may be trapping moths, but my heart is full and I now know my worth. I now know my value and what I bring to the table and I am walking confidently through life as a skilled business woman, and learning how to transition into a mom of two littles.
Coming up, I'll be talking about all the details as well as what I've learned in my new life. This brand will be shifting a little, but it will still be us, so stay tuned for all the good, the bad, the great, the hilarious, and the heartbreaking.
Hold on because it's going to be a wild ride.
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